Gardo: I'd like to say hello to everybody Got the really devastating news from friends on twitter, in ds106radio land glad it took awhile to get on the stream because I needed a moment with my door carefuly closed and I sat crying i've never met this woman but anyone of us who have met Alan we HAVE met this woman and we will continue to meet her or anyone in his network which spans the globe knows that his mother lives on for the rest of our lives I made a little playlist that i want to send out for my friend and brother stick with that auto-pilot, it will get you through we're still going to be here and we're going to be getting you through that part too not say much of anything tried to put this together with stuff in my itunes it's reasonable line up if i had my entire library it's heartfelt once you've got poetry & rock & roll I think you've got some good stuff on your side 3:30 Alan, this is for you and that great cookie lady too. that I so enjoyed speaking with in line for the pizza, down there in Brooklyn Start with some poetry from my beloved English professor, Elizabeth Phillips 3:50 Dirge without Music Edna St. Vincent Millay I am not resigned to the shutting away of loving hearts in the hard ground. So it is, and so it will be, for so it has been, time out of mind: Into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely. Crowned With lilies and with laurel they go; but I am not resigned. Lovers and thinkers, into the earth with you.
Be one with the dull, the indiscriminate dust.
A fragment of what you felt, of what you knew,
A formula, a phrase remains, --- but the best is lost. The answers quick & keen, the honest look, the laughter, the love,
They are gone. They have gone to feed the roses. Elegant and curled
Is the blossom. Fragrant is the blossom. I know. But I do not approve.
More precious was the light in your eyes than all the roses in the world. Down, down, down into the darkness of the grave
Gently they go, the beautiful, the tender, the kind;
Quietly they go, the intelligent, the witty, the brave.
I know. But I do not approve. And I am not resigned. 5:40 -wilco, any major dude 8:48 -sound spoken word: Carl Wilson HAwthorne California Set. Steely Dan, Well the music does have a spiritual quality to it and it's something that we were aware of because when we did the sessions when we heard the sound coming out and it just had this indescribable quality to it to the env be in room and you hear this noise come over speakers and you'd be resonating with it basic truth music is an expression of spirit a living expression it has a real people connector because people *are* spirit 9:27 -lovin' spoonful, do you believe in magic- 11:30 -Ballad of El Goodo, Big Star Live 14:30 (sorry NiceCast Trial ran out- fuzz for 5 seconds) -XTC - CHALKHILLS AND CHILDREN 18:15 And Death Shall Have No Dominion Dylan Thomas read by Richard Burton And death shall have no dominion. Dead mean naked they shall be one With the man in the wind and the west moon; When their bones are picked clean and the clean bones gone, They shall have stars at elbow and foot; Though they go mad they shall be sane, Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again; Though lovers be lost love shall not; And death shall have no dominion. And death shall have no dominion. Under the windings of the sea They lying long shall not die windily; Twisting on racks when sinews give way, Strapped to a wheel, yet they shall not break; Faith in their hands shall snap in two, And the unicorn evils run them through; Split all ends up they shan't crack; And death shall have no dominion. And death shall have no dominion. No more may gulls cry at their ears Or waves break loud on the seashores; Where blew a flower may a flower no more Lift its head to the blows of the rain; Though they be mad and dead as nails, Heads of the characters hammer through daisies; Break in the sun till the sun breaks down, And death shall have no dominion. 19:48 fountains of Wayne- all kinds of time 24:05 the greenberry woods- trampoline 27:29 Gardo [Listing what we heard] expresses both love and the sense of bewilderment that something as beautiful as life, can end and yet, in a way, it doesn't. and that's the struggle that's ahead. life that's still here even though the life is not here how to make sense of that something I've been trying to make sense of for 22 years since i lost my first parent can't claim to have gotten anywhere with that except that I know that love doesn't go away love is still there the thing is still there taught me love is not gone either so, think about that personal life network personal love network, my dear friend, my brother think about those that are here for you to whom you have given so much from whom you must draw strength in those days and weeks ahead you must go on you don't get over it but that's the task ahead. that's the road we are on together i have just a few more things for that journey 3 more pieces on the playlist, my friend, my brother (sorry no Who) Just know we are with you, Alan and your mother is with you and with us what an amazing set of lives that we get to live, together. I love you, Alan. Take good care 31:21 songs Beach Boys, Break Away 34:05 Excerpt from Whitman, Song of Myself The spotted hawk swoops by and accuses me, he complains of my gab and my loitering. I too am not a bit tamed, I too am untranslatable, I sound my barbaric yaws over the roofs of the world. The last scud of day holds back for me, It flings my likeness after the rest and true as any on the shadow'd wilds, It coaxes me to the vapor and the dusk. I depart as air, I shake my white locks at the runaway sun, I effuse my flesh in eddies, and drift it in lacy jags. I bequeath myself to the dirt to grow from the grass I love, If you want me again look for me under your boot-soles. You will hardly know who I am or what I mean, But I shall be good health to you nevertheless, And filter and fibre your blood. Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged, Missing me one place search another, I stop somewhere waiting for you. 35:49 Earth Wind & Fire, And Love Goes On.